Good company in a journey makes the way seem shorter. — Izaak Walton
And so i begin.
I want to start by saying that this is not a weightloss blog. Not really.
i started this blog so that I’d have a safe place to journal my thoughts and feelings as i strive to lose weight.
But truth be told, it’s more about me learning to like myself just as i am.
Accepting and loving my body, no matter what i may see in the mirror.
It’s about learning to talk to myself the way I’d talk to a good friend or better yet, one of my daughters.
I’m so tired of the lie that tells me that i’m defined by a number on the scale.
Or that I’d be happy if only I could look like i did 5 years ago. As i typed those words, it occurred to me that I wasn’t even happy five years ago. I was thin. I weighed twenty pounds less than i do now. In my opinion, i looked good. But I wasn’t happy. My life was in turmoil, having been rocked to the core by painful choices that my adult daughter made. Choices that affected our whole family, leaving us with scars that have yet to go away.
That being said, I’m ready to stop longing for what i don’t have and start doing something about it.
This blog—my journey—isn’t about perfection.
It’s the real deal. Open, honest, and raw. No holding back.